Road to the Billingual

Gosh. I've read my blogs here then I am feeling terribly ashamed. I am wondering whether readers would understand what I wanted to say or not. Actually , I cannot. There are loads of gramatical erros and typos.
Recently I have been at home almost of time. It means I have little oppotunity to speak in English. Sometimes I am really urge to make a coversation with the human being so I try to start a few conversations with a shop assitant or butcher or someboby I met. That's really odd. Am I just missing the human being?

When my husband came home from work, he asked me how my day was. I told him that I went to the twon and bought a vase for a banch of flower he had gaven me on the previous day. He has slightly a memory problem that he never remember what he is NOT interested in. So five or six minuites later he asked me same question again. It's enough to piss me off, but I answered his question in a same way. However, this time was a bit diffrent. "Vase" is pronounced "va:z" here not "veis" in American. There is no "r" sound in this word but I pronounced "r" sound quite strongly. It made the word sound like "birth". Actually I was a bit tired to tell him same thing again, so I didn't make any efforts on it. That's my excuse though. Appearently he looked puzzled and said "What?".
That's enough to make me mad.

I was being sensitive about speaking in English when I just started living in Ireland. Nowadays, I am fine even if my pronouncation hasn't improved yet. I've gained confidence for some reasons. My big progress for the speaking English is that I have no problem to make a phone call now. I hated it and always avoided it. I still have no clues how to say for the person on the other end of line to understand my inquiries straighaway though, I have no problem for a phone or to see a doctor or to negotiate the price with a car dealer. I am not too sensitive any more but still worried about the improvement for my language skill, especially whenever such kind of thing like story between me and my husbond happens. Going out and getting myself socialized would be best way to improve my language skill and social skill as well. Nothing will be changed unless you take an action. Nothing will be improved even if you feel jealous that someone you know has a better situation to improve her/him language skill......